Why even bother?

Ich bin der Geist, der stets verneint!
Und das mit Recht; denn alles, was entsteht,
Ist wert, daß es zugrunde geht;
- Mephistoteles

I don’t believe Mephistoteles. I don’t believe the ultimate proposal that not existing is better than existing. I don’t believe it.

But I don’t know why.

I do have to justify my believe. Not for myself, but for each and everyone who get’s to feel the premises for Mephistoteles argument, which is suffering and pain. The children beg for answers. The children with absent parents. The children with abusing parents. As if answers would help them. The answer is for me.

I mean you could argue that if you would follow Mephistoteles argument you would make everything worse, like a self fullfilling prophecy. The more you judge life itself, and bring judgment into existence, the greater the suffering and the greater the need for it to persih.

But how to deal with the already existing pain and suffering of life itself? Without adding to it? See this question implies that I do believe that no pain is better than pain. That the absence of suffering is better than suffering.

To make it worse, often the greatest highs are won by suffering and pain. But let’s say for the sake of the argument, even though the process might be full of suffering and pain, and it might serve a greater purpose, and even though the purpose is only great because of the suffering and pain, still the process is directed towards a place where there is no suffering and pain. A place where it all makes sense, where there is a relief. So yes I do say, this state of beeing is better than the state of suffering.

But I don’t really know why.

And let’s say to help is to suffer for someone else. So you fight suffering by suffering. Of course you have no obligation to help, to really help, to make yourself dirty, mouth to mouth, literal bloody first aid. Stand there and watch the suffering, mouth-bleeding addict die. I mean there is a social obligation to make a phone call – but to help? To really fight the suffering by suffering? To infect yourself with the suffering of the addict? For what?

A nasty zero sum game, an evil eternal joke.

The one holy enough who suffered and sacrificed his life for someone else fought the suffering with all he had. But he still inflicted more suffering on himself and on to his relatives. He had to ask his brother to comfort his mother. Yes there is resurection on earth. But only for the holy one. For us it might be in heaven. If we believe.

And I don’t know why.